Yesterday was a fun day!

I woke up yesterday morning and i felt it would be a good day. the sun was chirping and the birds were shining. after i ate breakfast, i went to the bookstore and i bought the book 'Liefhebben' (To love). its not a book about about romance, but about how to reach 'supernatural sexuality'. basically its a book about how to improve your sex life/sex skills or however you wanna call it. not that i necessarily need improvement, but i think that one is never old enough to learn ;).
i bought this book with coupons that i won at my university. there was a kind of 'contest' and you could win 20 euro book-coupons. the contest was about knowledge of literature and you had to use the knowledge you had about books and authors and then create your own 'point of view'. of course i knew how to impress the girl who was the judge and she told me i was the winner and within 15 minutes i got my 20 euro coupons ;)

So like i was saying, i bought this book about sex (one of my favorite subjects) and after that i did a good deed for my brother. you see, because i'm a student i get a student-travel-card and i can use public transportation for the entire year for free. my brother doesnt have this card. so what i did, i went to the post-office to say that my card was stolen (of course it was not stolen, but i also want my brother to be able to use buses for free ;). i had to fill out a document, but i didnt know that i needed an official police stamp. so i headed to the police station and i asked for a stamp. initially they didnt wanna give me this stamp, because first i had to file a report or some shit. luckily for me, the officer in duty happened to be a female and i gave her my puppy-eyes-look :P. within 15 minutes i left the police station with a stamp on my document ;)

Later that evening i went to the cinema with one of my girlfriends. even tough the movie was not in my top-10, i enjoyed the time that i was spending there :D

hahaha the movie was really bad, but we drank 4 Smirnoff Ice so it got a bit better :P

After this delightful piece of craftsmanship, we went to De Kroon, a lounge spot next to Club Escape. we drank 4 Baileys and had nice conversations. i really enjoyed my time there, also because we spend it in a nice atmosphere.

When i came home and drank my third glass of Disaronno Originale, i was contemplating about my day. even tough my day was so nice, i cant stop thinking about my girlfriend... i almost went to Warsaw yesterday, but it feels so wrong because nothing is in place. i don't feel that i'm wanted there and i don't think that by going there, i will be able to put things in place. if only i felt that by going there, i could fix all problems, i already would be there by now. going there is not the solution.

My father once told me 'don't fight a battle when you know you'll not win'. i know that I'll not win this battle. (and i deliberately say 'battle', not 'war') because a battle can only be won if you master the situation and if luck is on your side... i don't own the situation, nor am i lucky...

I just need ONE opportunity, one real chance, one shot, one good card...

For now, its out of my hands and i can only await the move of the hands of time.

for what is time, if there is no love?
without love there is no life...
my life is you,

only you.